Entourage

Some more about my inspiration. Although my blog is about music and its addiciton, it's also about my passion for entertainment and how it consumes people. My passion for entertainment and music is where I want to take my career, and I am a firm believer that you SHOULD love what you do. Entourage is a show that understands that. For those of you that may not watch the show, it is on its 5th studio season about living the celebrity life in Hollywood and all the benefits that come with the package. 4 guys from Queens, NY - Vince: the star, Eric: his best friend and manager, Johnny Drama: the star's older brother and aspiring actor, Turtle: the tag-along "assistant" and friend and Ari: the successful, whitty, determined to get what he wants agent! Not only are these characters idolized, they are passionate and iconic. Their stories are hillarious and packed with drama and action...just for the record, I AM GOING TO BE ARI SOME DAY!

I CAN DO IT!

Today I had a vision..I always knew I wanted to work in the entertainment industry, probably music..like producing or representing independent artists, but it was only after finding out about a few internships I realized I was meant to be overseas! I want to move to Europe and never had the courage to just get up and go. I have decided that since I now have a diploma in Advetising and Media Communications and am working towards a certificate in PR, that I need to network and broaden my horizons. Over the winter break I am going to apply for several internships in London, England and Los Angeles. I know they are unpaid, but the only way to get your foot in the door is to embrace what you have learned, use your knowledge to its full potential and prove yourself to the rest of the world that you CAN do it.. I CAN DO IT.. and I will have to be broke first in order to do it!

CAN'T WAIT!!

Everytime I feel any sort of emotion, I get awkward and depressed. Instead of talking about it, I cry, scream, yell and of course, sing! I am a terrible singer but it lets me release negative energy and I start to feel normal again. Oasis is the best remedy. They have 7 albums and their lyrics are relatable allowing me to believe what I am feeling is not so "out of the ordinary." I can't wait to see them live...I have seen them once and wanted it to last forever! My seats are on the centre floor, 10th row!!!! I CAN'T WAIT!!! Hopefully I am not feeling down that day, but if I am, I know the remedy will cure me....OASIS!!!

So why am I addicted??

After writing a few meaningless posts, I discovered why I actually AM addicted to music. I really have a hard time dealing with my emotions and obstacles that fall in my path, but after this weekend I can put it in words. My life is complicated sometimes, like many others, but never can I deal with a problem before relating it to lyrics. Sometimes I am unclear and worried about what lies ahead, but if someone has already faced a problem like mine or has at least been able to relate, then I know I can too. That is why I really want to work for an organzation or bands/music labels (currently independent) that just need a push or some help to get themseles into the scene. Everyone deserves to be heard...they might just end up getting someone in the right direction, like me.

What am I doing!?!

No matter what...I am constantly finding myself looking for reasons to pretend nothing is wrong in my life. Although...everything is wrong, or at least feels wrong. I feel like I am supposed to be somewhere else, with other people and doing something different! I think I want to live in another country and start all over! Too bad I didn't have a time maching because I would fast forward.. and maybe backward every couple days just to change things and see how they could have eneded up! TILL NEXT TIME..

My day...

Soo, worked all day and got to more thinking..that is what sucks about being a server, during down time all I do is THINK!!! Now..off to more home work..hopefully my mind doesn't wander (and the A.D.D. doesn't kick in) and I won't think too much :P

Pondering....

Soo...what do you do when you are sooo frustrated you can't even think?? That is how I feel at this exact moment and I do NOT know how to fix it :( I feel lost and in a daze?? Anything I try to do results back to me thinking about my "situation" that can't really be helped...yet I still fid myself pondering over it and thinking there IS a way to change it...deep down I know there is not...

First timer

Well, I have never used a blog before so I must admit, I was a bit skeptical.. I will give it a shot!
It did take me some time to actually create one, buuuut it has offically been done! Now, hm wrk!